LIS,
Know that you are a beautiful special person. Eventually your H will realize all that these actions have jepordized. I know set backs. I have not come as far back as you did, so my setback is not as deep as yours, but I know the grief.

You are not alone. Try and heal.

BITS
Me 55, ACK, when did that happen? Doesn't feel like 55
D 30
S 27

You create your own universe as you go along - Winston Churchill