So, haven't communicated with H for about 4 days. Tonight D had several performances at the bball game and I knew H would be there, so I really spiced up my look. It made me feel great. I wore heels (which is a 180, I rarely wear them because I am 5'9"), my hair was cooperative and looked fantastic! I wore a low cut sweater (school color) and felt like I was ready to conquer the world. I caught H looking at me several times as I flitted around the gym visiting with friends. When I sat down, I sat down to a photographer buddy of H to chit chat, and not a few mins later H was there and sat next to me. H and I chatted on and off through out the game, as I left here and there to visit with friends and help with the Dance Team stuff. Everyone kept telling me how great I looked and it boosted my ego. You know, I thought I was going to look good for H to see me, but really, it ended up being for me. I felt great, it helped me to feel confident through out the whole evening. I barely gave H much attention at all. I have really been working on losing weight and have lost 52 lbs. I actually started the losing weight before H left. I still have about 40 more to get to my goal weight, but I feel so good it is really keeping me motivated! Plus, all the compliments and ego boost is keeping me focused. It is part of my own healing process, and I know it is a permanent lifestyle change. Okay, it is so late and I need to go get some sleep.
Blessings to all!
Lorie W47 H48 D16 M20 H gone 11/9/10 lives w/OW
When you forgive,you heal. When you let go,you grow. When you cry to God, you surrender. When you love unconditionally, you show others Christ's love.
