Thank you. I'll just listen to him and tell him I'm sorry he feels that way. He's already said that he doesn't want me to forgive him and doesn't want to know that I'll forgive him...he says it's because he knows he doesn't deserve me. I know that's just a cop out. He really is lost.
I've read DR and have gone dark. I know it got his attention because he complained to his Mom about me not answering his calls but he's almost using it as justification for not contacting me. But he does contact me...pretty much daily about something. I had only been responding if it was something important...like taxes or his requests for us to meet up do discuss "what we're going to do about us" but today the text outright stated talking about how to move forward with the divorce.
Tonight I had friends over to thank them for all the help they've given me in my journey. It's been two months but I swear they've been the hardest of my life. Last week they met me in a furniture store where I sat and cried about what it meant that I was buying new furniture. Today that furniture was delivered so I cooked a wonderful dinner and we toasted to my new life.
I want to thank everyone on these boards. These are my first postings but I have been reading all the threads. I am working on me. Detaching is not easy and I still cry or tear up daily. He was so kind and thoughtful...considerate and doting and I feel like he's completely turned his back on me. He's right...I don't deserve this and the old me never would have put up with it. Thank you to everyone for sharing your stories and experiences.
