Newbie post What to do now

[JustStunned]

I got home tonight and into the downward spiral again, big empty house, so many memories. I remember W complaining it would not be big enough and then later it is too big to keep clean. I felt better after praying.

I’ve spent the last couple of hours rereading DR for the umpteenth time. I need to find another book. I have seen a couple of suggestions here so to the book store I go tomorrow.

When W left last Sat, she said “see you next week”. She wants to begin the inventory of household items to divide. I think I will be busy tomorrow. I know she has an appointment to give blood at the Red Cross tomorrow. They called and left a message confirming it. They are just up the street. She hasn’t contacted me regarding a time to meet. So I think I will be busy away from the house most of tomorrow. It is a risk, she could decide to take another load of stuff, but at this point it is just stuff.

I am actually of two minds here. Going through an inventory and facing the reality of splitting it up, will be stressful for her also. Perhaps it would inject a dose of reality into la la land. Sorry I am frustrated. I need to prepare to do this and follow through else I might become emotive and blow it, another reason to be busy tomorrow.