Hi!
Well, things were better last night with h. Debi, I like your point about them "testing" us. Aren't we always being tested?

I went out to din. with a different ff, and h went out with his buddy. He got home and climbed into bed and was being nice and affectionate.
Convo:
h: how was your day?
me: fine. how was yours?
h: fine. What do you know?
me? not much (it was 2am). What do you know?
H: i know i missed you.
me: WHAT?
h: I know i missed you.
me: WHAT?
H: I know i missed you.
me: can i get that it writing?
ha ha...
h: well, I haven't seen you much the past couple days.
me: awww...thanks!!! i missed you too!
then we went to sleep...

I was starting to feel sick again, so I went to the dr. today. My new boss was very nice and told me to do what i needed to do unlike my last boss.

Feel better emotionally. Just need to chalk h's mood Tuesday night up to being tired/being drunk/or just not in a good mood having NOTHING to do with me... I need to learn to be FINE with him acting that way. (Well, at least I didn't bi!ch at him like i would have in the past. Or CRIED!!!) OK, these aren't just baby steps!!!

I AM GETTING BETTER WAMMIT!!! I AM MAKING PROGRESS! Whether he acknowledges it or not, I need to continue to believe in myself and appreciate the changes that I have made for ME.

Read the chapter about sex in DR. It reinforced my idea of backing off. (at least until Saturday ) And, how nagging/crying is a turn-off. H has been very honest with me about this. Good. Just gotta keep it up.

karen