Sorry to hear you are having a "blue" time. It bites, doesn't it? I wish those were few and far between for all of us.
Maybe H is "testing" you. I find it easier (for me) to think that my H is testing me when he does things that make me cringe and squirm. I know I would want to be certain that my spouse could keep their changes even when the times got tough. So we should expect them to maybe test the waters at times.
My H does the very same thing...does EXACTLY what I complain about, just to gage my reaction. Strangely enough, if we don't react the same way, they usually do what we WISH they would do in the first place. Does that make sense? Ugh! I need to sleep.
Hang in there, Karen. I have a feeling you will be a DB success story and we'll all be begging for you to give us advice! Hey...I already DO that!
Take care and I'll keep you in prayer. Do you read the bible? Lots of good stuff to keep ya on the right path!
Have a great V-day! Hope your H makes it the best yet! God bless! Debi
Hey...I already DO that! 
