Hi, I'm feeling a little blue. Last night I went out with gf's and had a good time. However, most of them have children so that's all that they talk about, so it is a little awkward for me. My close gf is trying to get pregnant.
Anyhow, I get home and h isn't home. He comes home after I've been sleeping and gets into bed. I say hello, he says hello. He doesn't kiss me. I ask how his night was and he asks me. Then I ask where he went and he was silent. I asked if he was falling asleep and he said yes, so I didn't talk anymore, and went back to sleep after lying awake for half an hour. I felt hurt that he made no attempt to give me a kiss or hug hello. I had once mentioned this to him that I want an x when he comes in and he said he didn't want to disturb my sleep, but i ALWAYS wake up when he comes in and said I would prefer that he does kiss me.
This morn, I said goodbye to go to work as he was still in bed. He did give me a couple hugs and kisses. I told him I had din. plans tonight and asked if he was going out. He said yes. Ok, fine...
So, why blue? It kind of hurt my feelings how he acted towards me last night. So, he was prob. drunk and tired and just basically "passed out," and it wasn't personal. Additionally, b/c when we went to Cleve. w/that couple (the gf I was with last night), h said that he didn't want to stay out late b/c he has to work sat's 9-2. So, why can he stay out until 2 when he has to work 7-5 on Thursd, but not when he works on sat.??? My friend and I brought this up and she said maybe there isn't anything to entice him into staying out late. Thanks...
I know...patience...he'll come around...etc...just having a hard time. Feeling like DB'ing my ass off until Aug. 12 (my 35 bday) and if he still doesn't know whether or not he wants to be married to me, to maybe walk...But, then am I just being commitment phobic??
