Well I don't know who has or has not been following my journaling efforts, but it seems things are looking up just a little. I had a DB counselling session a little while ago where the counsellor made an absolutely brilliant suggestion. I have been implementing it since he mentioned it and I'm seeing a little light now. It's even getting a (very) little flirty! The suggestion? Well it's about saying no. I don't take "no" or disagreement well, it was and sometimes is a personal ouch. I am learning how to handle it better than I have. My H. has a very difficult time saying no, and doesn't feel respected or heard.
So every day for the last while, I've been texting him requests, some are true requests or suggestions, some are just silly, some are about personal indulgence, some are possible but the probability is high that H will refuse. I don't push it and keep it light.
It's been fun, and even resulted in meeting for lunch! Plus, he seems to enjoy the contact and has prolonged the text messaging on occassion.
BITS Me-51, WAS-52 Kids 2 M-26yrs, H.left 2009, 2 more Bomb drops, Reconnection spring 2013 Change is inevitable, personal growth is a choice. Love is a action and choice you make, every day.
