Bolt tunring again

[Bolt]

I like the analogy that someone - jtb maybe - said. Make the roller coaster more like a train track.

I can sense it becoming more like that now.

Yesterday, the W had a emotion filled day. She had a meeting with our therapist and that gets her a little angst-filled. She's been dealing with the move and a friend of ours who my W feels judges her.

So, needless to say, she was a little distant and on edge.

Normally, that wouldn't bother me but recently because of the sitch, it does affect me.

However, I'm getting smarter to recognize this and do my best to understand what she is going through and empathizing with her(is it with or for?).

So instead of getting mean and cold, I journaled, came on here to slightly vent, and then stayed strong for her.

I'll tell you what. She definitely appreciated it. After the therapy session, she came home and we hung out and talked. She did this move that was a little odd to me at first. She sat up on our island in our kitchen. She never did that before but to me, I used it as an invitation. I slowly moved to her and parted her legs a bit(a bit, you sickos) and stood in between them to give her a hug.

She held tight and wouldn't let go when I started to. It wasn't one of those "one armed" hugs or half hearted hugs either. It was a full blown rub your back loving hugs.

Bolt got his W fill.

The rest of the night was pretty fun. We've been playing around quite a bit with sarcastic jabs and sharing funny stories with each other - we love to laugh (which is good, considering what I do for work).

At one point, she was lying down and I went in for that close almost kiss. You know the one when you get real close but then go in for the neck? Well, I was slow and sly and went for a little longer kiss. She beat me to the punch and stopped a little short - and said - you missed your chance and smiled.

"the hell I did," I said and planted one on her

why am I expounding the sordid details?

There IS hope if you listen. There is a chance if you change. Just 2 months ago, my W said she didn't love me and wanted a D. Just 1 month ago she was looking for another place to live in a state a couple of thousand miles away. Just 2 weeks ago she was saying that she didn't know if she could love me.

Do those two stories sound like a woman who is the same in that above paragraph?

Are we where we both want? Nope. We still have a long way to go. But guys, stick to the plan. Treat each other with respect, honor, dignity and LOVE. It can and WILL come back.