Last night W and I switched the responsibility of her cell phone from me to her. She was hoping that I would still help her pay for it, but I told her that I can’t given everything that has happened. We talked for about an hour and it got interesting.
I’ll cut to the chase on the conversation: W: I realize that you were going to get hurt when I told you I was unhappy and wanted to move one. I never meant to hurt you anymore. M: Yes. W: I hid things from you and lied to you thinking that I was protecting your feelings, but I made things worse. You know that I have never lied to you before this and I feel really bad that I hurt you more. I’m sorry that I lied to you. M: Wow, I appreciate more than you know that you are admitting your mistakes and taking responsibility for them. We are all human and we all make mistakes. The things that you did were very hurtful, but you know what? It might be hard to forget, but (looking her into her eyes) I forgive you.
W is beginning to talk more and more about the positive things in our relationship. This has been happening more often in the last few days.
It was raining when we got home, so I came around to open her door with the umbrella. As she got out, she put her arm around mine while I walked her to the front door.
I was afraid how this night was going to go. I’m glad it turned out the way it did. I keep telling myself in my mind as I interact with my W, “fake until you make it”, “validate”, “is this going to get me closer to my goal”, and “this is a marathon, not a sprint, patience”.
Me:45 ExW:48 M:04/97 3 Bombs & 2 ReCons 1st BD 11/10 D Finalized 4/20 D-16 S-14 Going in one more round when you don't think you can. That's what makes all the difference in life.~Rocky Balboa