Second....your not ready to be in those type of situations. I know your buddies mean well. But, ya gotta avoid that scene.
Third...your vows mean something to you. It makes no difference if she doesnt look at it the same. You are Married so, act like it.
Listen, I know exactly how you feel. But,you have to find things that help you GAL. You are not ready to be with anyone. There is no shame in loving your W and wanting R with her. You have to conduct yourself like the H she would want!
Ya know the saying...two wrongs dont make a right? That applies here. Your W may have strayed, sure. But, maybe she hasnt. Either way, would it change your Love for her?
So, FOCUS all your attention on you and getting yourself to a place of peace and calm. So, if/when she comes around you will be ready. She will see the change in you...
But, if however you go the other way and "hook up" with someone...all this was for nothing...
At the end of day FOBD...it's your life and you have to live with your choices. Only you know when your done. But, I don't think you are yet...right?
Dixie
Me: 40 H: 39 M: 17 yrs - Together 18 1/2yrs No kids Seperated: May 18, 2006 EA/Poss PA with OW for 6 months prior to leaving. 2nd Bomb dropped: Dec. 23, 2010
