Need Advice!! Not sure on next move!! Part 3

[dixiegal]

Thank you Gypsy!

I'm holding on...I'm not ready to give up yet....its just sometimes I get weary and tired.

But, I'm not without hope...I tell myself that this was not the man I fell in love with...he/we got lost..I found my way back not all the way...but, he is still out there lost...

So, Ill leave him bread crumbs...LOL

xoxo

Dixie
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[Bolt]

that is a great analogy.
Keep that light on too.

[dixiegal]

Thanks BOLT!

I'm hanging in there....nothing to report. Still havent heard from H. His Birthday is 2morrow. Gonna just send him a simple Happy Bday text.

No expectations. But, I do feel like I'm hanging on by a thread these days...it use to be a rope.

BITS

Dixie

[Denver_2010]

Send that text late Dixie!

BITS
Denver

[Bolt]

one day at a time, Dixie. Remember that.

AND try to enjoy it as much as you can. I know it's hard right now but do try.

[2stepboogie]

The darkest hour is just before the dawn Dixie

[Rileybug]

Dixie,
Just read up on your situation. I just wanted to let you know your analogy about you h being lost really hit home with me. I have been questioning what the heck I am still doing tying to hold my marriage together and then I read that post. I have to remember the man I married 10 years ago not focus only on the person he may be in this moment.

Thanks for giving me hope.

Rileybug

[dixiegal]

UPDATE:

So, today/this morning I woke up dreaming of H. Today is his Birthday. We now have not had together; Christmas, New Years, Wedding Ann., Valentines and now a Birthday. I lay here awhile thinking of him and recalling years past. Birthday's are a real big deal to me. So, I always tried to make them grand! I use to wake him up sometimes at Midnight to tell him and etc.

Anyways, knowing he'd be up. (he works nights) I sent him a "Happy Birthday" text. He didnt answer..I thought no big deal maybe he took the day off, is out of town or sleeping.

So, I got on FB and went to his page. He took the comments option off. (why?) No matter I thought, I left him a Happy Birthday under a pic of the dog.

I then went to my FB news feed. I saw where my BIL and SIL were now friends w/H on FB.?? But, it was a NEW FB PAGE he had created. I clicked on it and he doesnt have his pic nor anywhere to friend him. He then went to his Sis page and left her a msg about floating the river w/her this summer.

I am DEVASTED....I have not cryed like this in weeks...What does this mean???? Why would he do that???? Clearly he is really done and wanted to end the last connection we had...Face Book. He has moved on....

I feel hopeless....I am crushed...I have to face it, he does not love me nor does he want me. He wants nothing to do with me. Period.

Last week after he cancelled the dinner that he asked me too. I knew in my heart that he was done...something happened that changed his mind. But, 24 hours later after calling to cancel. He texted he missed me. It was the first time in so long....it gave me hope that we was still lost but, that he still had some feelings for me. However, he said he'd call me to reschedule...I never heard from him again. That was a week ago.

I want with every ounce of my soul to R w/my H. But, I have to face that he is NEVER coming back for me. He is NEVER going to show up one day to tell me he was wrong. He is NEVER going to love me again.

Im praying for GOD to give me strength...

BITS

Dixie

[FellOnBlackDays]

Dixie,
Hey, don't let FB get you down. Remember, he could still be carrying some anger or disgust over what has happened and he could be doing this to make himself feel better. Heck, I am quite certain my W has already done the same. Her current FB page has not seen any action on it in weeks. My FIL for some reason seems to have locked me out of his page. Screw FB. Don't worry about it, please! If he wants to act like a jerk, let him. Don't stoop to his level and don't let it get to you. You are bigger than that! You know why? Because you are a BITS!!

BITS never walk alone!

FOBD

[dixiegal]

DONT know why...but, cant see any posts or anything...will have to start a new one..