Letting go is hard to do!

[Seminolewind]

I have had many thoughts tonight about what really went wrong in my marriage and I know it took both of us to do the damage. The only thing is that she decided to bring someone else in the picture. She made up her mind and quit. I was oblivious and let her run the marriage. That wasn't because I wanted to show her I was a weak man, it was because I just thought I was making her happy. I will never let that happen again with her or without her.

I will show my girls the father that they deserve and I will teach them how a man should behave. I am a dang good dad that loves his children and myself. That is something that I am working on is myself I needed a kick to get me going I just didn't need the kick my wife gave me. I will survive this train wreck and my wife might see me as the better option and she might not. I can't worry about her anymore. I am going to focus on me and the girls. I am tired of losing sleep and I rufuse to let this ruin me as a man.

I know my marriage is dead and I know I will be divorced soon. I will not let this break me as a man I am better than this. I am getting to a point that nothing really matters other thanmy happiness. I don't need my wife to make me happy. I read somewhere that if you go dark and they stay dark they are happy. Well we both deserve to be happy. I was raised a Kansas farm kid and I had to work my butt off for everything I have in life. I might not of worked hard in this marriage but I bet I do better next time.

I will live my life to the fullest and I will never be a weak man. I am excited to see where life leads from here.

I will continue to db until I decide that I am done.