My Story.

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Today was again filled with anxiety and depression. Woke up feeling vaguely suicidal.

So, I made a fast appt with IC.

Substitute IC today, since my normal IC is on vacation. Actually I got IC's boss. She wanted a run down of my situation. I gave it to her, and talked a bunch.

At some point, this came up:

About 2 years ago, STBX had a family reunion. STBXMIL pulled me aside and told me "We used to call her the ice queen. We used to joke she could never have babies because she would eat her young. But you have made her so happy. The Ice Queen is gone. She can't stop talking about wanting children with you. I can't thank you enough for making my daughter happy, because we never thought she would be." I was touched and moved. In retrospect, it was a warning. I got the Ice Queen back.

IC told me "Anyone can be unhappy in a relationship. Anyone can be considering leaving their partner, but her coldness and brutality is simply chilling, and I've been doing this for 20 years."

Also, they want me on AD's. I have to see a doc to get that obviously.

Last, I deleted all of my texts with STBX, which go back to pre-sitch, and include pix from our honeymoon, and the last time she told me she loved me.