Well positive is not where I have been the last couple of days. Things with H have been down right crappy. I have managed to stay strong through most of it, at least when he is in my face, but it seems as soon as he is gone I am a complete wreck. All of a sudden he wants to be Mr.sweet and caring. worried about how things are gonna go. worried about bills and food and the mortgage. How things are going to work out with the kids blah blah blah. Today he tells me that he wants us to be nice with each other. That he was a bad husband and he is just trying to be honest with me. WTF? He hasn't been honest with me in years and he picks now to tell the truth? How the heck does he even expect me to believe him.
Then I get an email from our D7's teacher. She has been stealing from other classmates and causing some trouble. When I talked to her about the whole thing she told me she just wants to get expelled from school. Then she can be with mom 24/7. Holy crap is all I could think of. she is only 7 and is so effected by this split. I don't know what to do. I can't stop crying about this. I hate that my kids are hurting so bad.
Me:35, 2 kids from PR H: 37, 2 kids with me T: 15 years M: 8 years in Feb. Second walk out: 14-01-2011 H had PA: 2007
