The Lies and Deception Killing Me

[abbey1989]

Hi again,

I think I need to get help. I can't stop thinking about the lies and the cheating. I feel like if I confront H will for sure bail. Maybe that's a good thing? I really don't know how I feel about that. Scared mostly.

I found an alternate email address of his today. Wow. I tried to reset the pw even. Notification of that little misstep is now going to some other email address....I checked and it is none of the addreses we have here in the house (that I know of anyway). So hello! Another idiot move.

I think I need some mind numbing meds. Seriously.
How do you all cope?

This man is supposed to be my rock, my future, my most trusted person on the planet. I feel so lost...and can't talk to anyone.