I haven't done everything wrong...

[islander]

I am feeling better and more detached today. I replaced all of the pictures of my W with pictures of our kids. I moved a few things around, and plan on tiling and painting a room soon.

My W is coming over to do bills and to discuss a few things on Monday. I need to and want to do a better job than I did last week when she came over. She will definitely notice the changes I have made in our house. But the changes I made are for me. I am seriously considering keeping the house if she does not come back, and I need to make it mine.

On Monday I am not going to bring up our R at all. If she brings up the D or anything else I am going to be short with her and not discuss it. Tell her I have a lot to think about, and maybe say that my feelings have not changed "too much" but again, I have a lot of thinking to do. I hope it goes well. I am starting to believe that I will be ok with or without her, but I know I still want to save our M with everything that I am.