Newbie post What to do now

[JustStunned]

Not much to report about my sitch. W sent a TM letting me know she would be busy tonight. Taking a Nephew to boy scout meeting and then a dinner with D.

I spoke with D last night about her dinner with W. She has seen me at some pretty low emotional points in the last few days and I asked her not to share these. She said she does not want to discuss anything about this sitch. She has mid terms coming up and needs to focus on them. She said she understood what I asked her and just wants to avoid the topic altogether. I asked her if she could checkout the DB FB page and let me know what she thinks. She understood that was for me and not W. I may have to get a FB account, though in this emotional state I don’t know if that is a good idea.

The thing that is affecting me so much is not having a reaction from the counter proposal. I don’t know if W’s L has even discussed it with her yet so it is too soon to expect a reaction. The counter is very different from what W asked for. It protects me as much as I can be protected, rewards her decision to D as soon as possible very little, and per my L is very realistic. He has been doing this for 30 yrs in this court so I have to trust his opinion on how realistic it is. I know I need to let go of expectations here. It will be what it will be.

I can feel the beginning of an illness probably the flu that has been going through the building at work. I hope not, but I may be off line for a few days if it is.