For those who are watching me...

H came home from work yesterday afternoon. Not only did he put the new clutch in my truk, but he changed the oil, washed it, and checked my emergency break b/c it is not working! I thanked him a lot.

I took a comment out of context and told him I was trying to be courteous and he was "jumping" all over me...he came over to me and said that he wasn't...I finished getting ready, he was out on the couch. He looked unhappy/tired. I asked if he was upset w/me, he said no. I asked if he was tired, he said a little. OK, I need to quit asking these questions right??? He's a big boy and can tell me if he's upset with me, right??? I feel like such a sap when I ask these q's, trying to figure out what is wrong with him. I know that he likes to unwind after work and that he worked a long day b/c of my truk.

I left and called him after I drove for a little while. I said, "OMG! This is sooo awesome!!! It is soooo much easier to shift! Thank you so much!!" He seemed pleased that I did this. I told him I just wanted to call him to exclaim and said c ya later.

Went out w/friend, her bro, his friend. Had a good time, but I was feeling anx/depressed. She is inspiring me to find a new job or take the Series 7 test for work and move onward and upward.

Came home, h came home a few minutes later and was raring to go !! It was great! Slept late and went to Burger King for bfast.

OK, so I know what I am doing is working, so why do I still feel yucky? I know that change is hard, and I guess I am still looking for more, like words from him, but I know that I need to be patient and focus on these steps b/c they are BIGGER AND BETTER than just baby steps!! Today at bfast he asked what we were going to do when I am off Tue and Wed. We had talked about going to see LOTR 3 and having lunch one day. He may have to go in to work for part of another day, but said that he would go in early.

*Well, I know I feel yucky about work and have a prob. turning my other probs into H/R/M probs and taking my frustrations out on him. Must NOT do that!!

ttys!
karen