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My Dear DBing Friends,

Right now I am thinking of a scene from the movie Castaway.
Guy gets stranded on a deserted island for several years,
comes home to find that his wife has married another man.
The life and plans he once had are gone forever.

The scene I am thinking of is where he says something to the effect of
"I'm so sad that she is gone. But I'm so grateful I had her with me all that time."

Right now my wife is not about to marry any other man.
And she doesn't believe that I am dead.
When it comes right down to it, all she believes right now,
Is that as long as she stays with me there is no hope
of getting her true needs met. No hope of having her dreams come true.

After yet another sleepless night, this morning I have realized that
more than anything else, it is my lack of hope, maybe even my lack of faith,
that is keeping me feeling desperate and defeated.

But what if I knew I could not fail?
What if I could actually prepare myself to overcome any obstacle,
stay on course for as long as it takes to get there,
and still make my dreams go?

The past few days have been really hard for me because I have been suffering from a lack of hope.
A lack of faith. A lack of confidence. And a lack of focus.

The other day my business partner asked me to revise my 6 month vision for myself,
and I found I couldn't do it. No matter how hard I tried, I simply could not envision the
lifestyle I desire, without somehow including my wife in the picture.

The Castaway also had a picture of his wife and life in mind that kept him going through his despair.
He had no idea what would happen each day that he got up alone,
No idea what would happen when he finally got up the courage to face his greatest fears and finally
leave the place he had been stranded.

When he set himself on the tides to see where they would lead.
All he had was a wing and a prayer.
And the door from a porta-potty.
Which he made into a sail.

He simply made the best of what he had.
And left the rest to God, Nature, or whatever you want to call It.

Right now I feel like I'm preparing to set myself on the tides.
I have a dream of somehow crossing the vast unknown
that lies ahead, and one day reuniting with my wife.

But right now there is nothing she can do for me.
Right now she is feeling lost-at-sea herself.

To save us both from drowning I must now play a bigger game than I have ever played before.
I must now become a bigger man than I have ever been before.
And I must be a more humble, yet confident, passionate and exciting man than I have ever been before.

All my life I've been really big on words. Taken all kinds of action, too
Done some amazing things. Made some colossal errors.
But experience is what you get when you didn't get what you asked for,
And at this point in my life I have enough experience to know that when we are in our Highest Power
anything is possible. And the truth is there is no seperation.
We are always in our Highest Power.
In God we dwell.

So this morning I am choosing to remember that anything is possible.
And I am creating my plan to cross the ocean.
But I don't want to do it alone on a raft without anyone else around.
No. Right now I really don't want to be alone.
Right now I am still feeling pretty scared and vulnerable.
And no false sense of bravado will ensure that my family and I will survive.

Right now half my family is lost to me.
I would like you to help me get them back.
Will you help me face my fears?
Will you help me to prepare?
Will you help me navigate for awhile?

In exchange I will gladly help you in any way I can, as well.
A couple of weeks ago I set myself a course to become an outstanding Husband, Father, Friend, Lover and Partner.
This morning I have a clear, albeit challenging view of what that actually looks like, for the next 6 months at least.
In my next post I'll tell you more about my plans and the challenges I foresee.

Thank you all for listening, for supporting and encouraging me and others along the way, and for continuing to believe in your Self and Love.

Cheers,

Mike