Sandi's right. NEVER apologize if that comes up again. It's putting down your own feelings for hers. It gives her the power. It shows her that she has power over even how you feel.
"I am just dying here a slow death."
The more you keep thinking this way, the more you're more likely to fail. Stop that kind of thinking. Your happiness does not revolve around her. Once you learn that and can detach, you'll be much more poised to know what to do next.
I just had a bad day yesterday and things were discussed last night. Even though nothing changed as far as our situation we had a very good talk. She actually got off the laptop and talked with me. She had a few moments were she got heated but stayed to continue talking about things. She had a moment were she stood up and said "I am done" but ended up sitting back down to talk more.
We went to bed civily and this morning was normal as well.
Me - 39 yrs old Wife - 39 yrs old Married - 18 years Together - almost 21 year Kids - son age 13/ daughter age 10 Bomb Dropped in May 2010 Seperating - June 2011, after school lets out
