H came home a little earlier last night - 12:30. I don't know why, but I was secretly hoping that he would. Well, I know he gets exhausted from driving even if it is 3 1/2 hours, so... I gave him a nice hug and we talked for a few min. (in bed-i was already sleeping.)
This morn. I got up about 10 min. before he goes to work while he eats cereal and talked to him for a few and gave him a couple hugs. He looked pretty down. Oc, i have to ask if he is ok, and oc he says yeah. But, he had to be in school on his days off and still work on his days on. I think he is bummed about having to go back to his grueling job and not have any time off.
My friend is in OH now and wants to go out Th, fri, sat.-all 3. So, I think I'll call h and see what he had in mind for the weekend, and when he prefers that we go out separately. He and I have not made any official plans for the weekend.
Feeling a little blue-I know that I need to be understanding about h being tired and yucky about work, but I am having a hard time not taking it personally and having some run-away thoughts. I want to have some special time together, but know that I cannot push for "romance, etc." and just let things flow and let him have a nice, RELAXING, good time with me, w/o any pressure. grrr... me wants, me wants. gotta chill.
karen goal-to be pleasant, safe, not freaking out, not starting fights...to be LOVELY. That's it, I want to be lovely.
