Ok, was having some anxiety, but I need to STOP!!! I do this crazy thing when H goes out, I look for evidence of how much effort he put into looking good. He put a lot of effort in tonight, so I'm feeling mad like when he is going to put that effort into when WE go out???

**sigh** But, I realize that I MUST act as if...oc, I will be happy to see him, but I MUST NOT MUST NOT MUST NOT pull this crap of complaining about his lack of effort with me. I know it will come back in time. I am hoping that he will tell me that he missed me, but I don't want to be disappointed if he doesn't. He said earlier that he was happy to be going home or to his own home or something like that. (And his lovely wife too???) Ok, so I haven't been very lovely. Must be nice so he WANTS to come home to ME).

I am seriously thinking about what you have all told me about this being where you USED to be before your h's dissed you.

OK, should I attempt to make a goal or two for the rest of the week? Ya'll know how I can overwhelm myself.

Anyone want to help?
I will not start fights w/h.
I will act as if I am totally fine w/spending time apart or if he is moody/tired.
I will clean up some of this house!
karen