I had a great time last night with the girls. Called h to say hi briefly while I was at a friend's house. This afternoon he called me to tell me he was on his way home. (Takes about 3 1/2 hours). He was talkative, and I wanted to talk, but someone came up to my desk and had to ask me a question and we have "spies" at work that tell my boss EVERY time I'm on the phone or late or whatever (which are rare, but it's EXTREMELY tense in my group right now.)
So he let me go and said he would see me very late tonight since he is going out. I feel a little sad. I missed him, and he did tell me that he was going out tonight, but I wish he was like, "oh, I want to see YOU and spend the evening with YOU." ya know? corny, yes, but honest. But, yes, I do know that we will be together prob. tomorrow and the rest of the weekend.
My friend who lives in CO may be coming to OH tomorrow, so if she does, I may go out with her one weekend night. I feel nervous about that. ME telling H that I am going out. Not a big deal AT ALL. He's not controlling AT ALL and wouldn't care, but it's that darn anxiety from being apart. I know I have to quit this nonsense. It is no way to live a life for either of us!! AND, I need to trust him!!! I have no reason not to.
Went to C appt. today. I was dreading it, but it turned out ok. We actually talked about having a plan and goals for the first time in 15 months.
