When life hands you lemons add alcohol and stir!

[mishka422]

Well crap. I'm even more confused than before.

I think I'm back to shutting up and marking time. If I open my trap then I risk what I do have. If I stay silent I risk losing my mind and soul.

Neither is a good option so I'm trapped. I stuck myself here. No more whining, playing the victim (except of my own stupidity), or talking about it here.

No amount of talking it out is getting my head in order so it's futile.

Moving on from this subject.