Sorry for the filing. In retrospect, you should have been there with her at the courthouse. That's another time you could have shown her that the D doesn't bother you and shown you are positive.
It may seem like I'm always busting your balls, but the times that I mentioned you should call her, etc. you kept talking yourself out of it.
If you want her to miss you, you have to give her something TO miss.
One thing stood out from your post a couple of days ago: "she was always trying to tell me what stage of grief i was in so that made it harder for me to detach. I kept feeling like if I acted like I had moved on she would think that I had accepted things and that would be the end."
See she's TELLING you how you're feeling or should be feeling because basically you haven't interacted with her enough.
Starting now, go out and live your life. You don't have the threat of D hanging over your head any longer. Start living for you.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
