Well, good news...
Yesterday I went to the mall and got a new copy of DR. I had some lunch and started reading. Prior to this, h came home from work and rather than deciding to stay home so I could be with him, I told him I was going. He said he was going to his 'rents', so I thought I'd have the house to myself for a little while, but when I got home, he was home. He was starting to snooze, so I climbed in and fell asleep too.

I got up first and made dinner. (Aren't you proud?) Then he asked what we were doing. I prepared ahead of time and told him about a couple bands at local bars. We took a chance and went to see someone we have never seen. I thought they were pretty good, h is a critic, but liked some of their stuff. H also asked if I wanted to play pool, but we just went to see the band. He contributed to the decision making. I was trying to be gentle and not bi!chy about making the plan. we had a good time, he initiated a lot of convo!! We left there and he asked if I wanted to go anywhere else. I asked like where, and he named a few places! I picked one and we went to have one more drink. We then went home. I, oc, always want , but figured it would be best not to push it and chill out some. So, I snuggled up to him and we fell asleep. This morn I initiated and it was just peachy.

WE decided to go out to bfast and again, had a nice time. We have been goofing around and playing/wrestling, etc. which makes us laff. He went to his friend's and I am supposed to get together with one of my ff's. I want to go to church this eve. too and must just do it, and not want to just sit around home waiting for h to do something with me.

He is going to cincinnatti from mon morn to wed eve for work, and told me he is going out wed. night. I said OK! (like just fine!) Last night I could tell that I wanted to nit-pick, like he didn't shave (and he always does when he goes out with his friends) and stupid stuff like that, but I backed off mentally and focused on the +, like him helping to make the plan and initiating convo.

After bfast I climbed back into bed b/c I was freezing. he came in and asked why I didn't put the other blanket on and put it on me!!! Woah!!! this is way diff. for him, and THEN as he left, I got up and he asked what I was doing. I said I had to get my phone. He goes, "i thought you were cold. I would have gotten it for you." WHAT??? Dang, this boy is just full of good stuff!!

YIPPEE!!! Now, oc, I must continue to be nice and keep on this upswing as I want him to perhaps miss me while he is away and not be GLAD that he is getting away from me. He seemed a little dissapointed that he is not going out for 25 cent cocktail shrimps and wings w/me and my fam. tomorrow. I said, there are more mondays!

Holdingon gave me some good whacks yesterday which is helping me maintain. She kept telling me that he DOES love me. Well, when I look at him, or catch him looking at me, I think, "yeah, he really does, b/c damn, I sure put him through the ringer." and yes, he does have these long convo's with me (even tho I shouldn't even be going there).

karen