I need to figure out why in this area I am impatient - you hit on it I'm selfish. FMV hit on it too. Fear. I swear I'm not impatient in most areas of my life.
It's completely understandable that you're not as patient in those other areas. They're not as important to you as this one. Maybe you're impatient with this process because your W's love validates for you that you're worthy of being loved. So when there is a threat that it will be taken away, you get fear that you're not worthy of it. Who wouldn't be impatient for that to return?
However, as with most things, you have to find some validation from inside yourself... other people can provide some for you, but it it's not there within yourself first, it's impossible for them to provide it all, and impossible for you to receive even if they do provide some.
(sorry.. getting girlie again. I'll stop now!)
I cannot complain for not receiving from others, that which I've never asked them for.
