ninelives, Id say look at every positive step no matter how small, as big step for you. You need to be proud and feel strong that you are moving even with all this hell placed on you. You know standing in a classroom full of kids and teaching them is no easy task. You have to give yourself some credit.
The more you move ahead, the better you'll feel. It's easy for me to say. I understand. I am in a similar boat and there are times i just wanna give and crawl into a hole. But then i try to remind myself that i need to do this for my daughter so that she can look up to me one day and be proud. I need to do this for people who still love me(my parents) and importantly i need to do this if i need to show my W what she's missing out.
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