Thank you all for your comments. I have read DB and DR. I will work on reading the other links posted. I guess im still abit confused it this is still a leftover MLC. Last time H never filed papers but this time he has. I feel that he has now decided he wants out. But at the same time I cant believe he would want to lose his family with his decision. Plus this time he is having an A with someone out of state. I dont know how to compete with that. I dont feel i should have to compete with that. Its just so hard to be mad at him. Maybe my love is stronger than my anger. Also i keep blaming myself for his leaving. Maybe i pushed him to hard. Like i said in previous posts hes not much of a communicator and a bit narcisstic but why do you just walk out the door. He texted me and wanted the tax info. Thats the latest communication ive had with him. I just want so much to fix this. I know im suppose to leave him alone right now and he even told me that a few weeks ago, "just let it be for awhile". But then i think, so he can fly off to meet the OW and have some fun. Im full of self blame and have little hope. Thanks everyone for listening. Rue
