Sandi's right. NEVER apologize if that comes up again. It's putting down your own feelings for hers. It gives her the power. It shows her that she has power over even how you feel.
"I am just dying here a slow death."
The more you keep thinking this way, the more you're more likely to fail. Stop that kind of thinking. Your happiness does not revolve around her. Once you learn that and can detach, you'll be much more poised to know what to do next.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
