I plan on just sending a simple "Happy Birthday To You!" on Saturday.
That's it...
I then will make myself REAL busy! I've just been a wreck these past few days...Crying, Thinking crazy OW possibilities and such. Gosh, would it not be easier if we acted like them? I would not of course. But, dang it seems so easy for them. It's so hard to wrangler your anger sometimes. Hence, the long walks!
They just disgard us and walk off...we are left devasted. They think I'll just start over..no big deal?! LIFE is not fair...GOD didn't promise us fair that's for sure. Good thing is today I have Church Choir. I need to be lifted up this evening. I'm looking forward to it!
I've been waking up the last few days and H does not pop into my head instantly. LOL it takes a few minutes...but, that's progress right? The dreams have stopped EVERYDAY of H too. I dream about GOD a lot these days. I wake up sometimes and I've been talking or praying in my sleep!!!
I'm sorry BITS I've been off the boards for 4-5 days...I'll get back going...just taking me awhile.
Thank you all for supporting me! I'm down but, I'm not out yet
BITS
Dixie
Me: 40 H: 39 M: 17 yrs - Together 18 1/2yrs No kids Seperated: May 18, 2006 EA/Poss PA with OW for 6 months prior to leaving. 2nd Bomb dropped: Dec. 23, 2010
