I do appreciate the 2x4. I don't want to sound ungrateful. I'm sorry if I do. The thing is, it hurts more sometimes. When he was gone, he had less of a chance to get to me. Now he's back and he still pushes buttons and it hurts. I joke around and I try to do my best to keep my self-confidence up. But sometimes the insensitive moments have a way of tearing me down quickly. And I honestly thought that when he came back, things would be looking brighter. But honestly, I still have the same doubts as I did before. I guess that's where my head is at...
