I think that experimenting is fine. 6 months? Heck, waiting period is only 60 days here. I question the sanity in that.
The roving band of idiots is tough. I had the same situation with my H. I believe the spouses are definitely influenced by these people. But, in the end, I do believe that they are still making their own decisions. No one, except the mentally disturbed, encourages a happy spouse to leave a marriage. So, like you, I'm pissed at his roving band of idiots but I still understand that they are just trying to help my H. They know not what they do. I wouldn't waste my time worrying about it.
The wedding. Yeah, I'd probably like to shoot myself too. But this is an opportunity and you need to get your head right for it. FOBD needs to shine bright. You don't get many chances for that long of a period of time to do that. But you need to figure out what to do here.
If you want to apologize, that's great. BUT, do not get into a conversation about how you changed and all of that. She's going to need to see that. Make your apology and then let her think on it for awhile.
Sweetie, mostly I'm just so sorry that you are having a hard time. I just see you trying so hard and I wish that your wife could see what we do. Figure out how to do that.
