Rollercoaster of love

[LearningPatience]

I've been feeling in a funk lately so I thought I'd journal a bit here and commiserate with all the awesome people here (yes, we all rock!)

I'll be renting a small, temporary apt from March 1-Aug 31. It's *tiny*, but it's also really cheap. Depending on how we split our finances, it might actually be cheaper for me to live alone. W is worrying about finances, especially since she had to spend about $1000 between car and phone repairs last Sat, plumber today and has two upcoming trips planned (one with me and friends).

W's depression is lifting a little and I've been there as much as I could for her. I've tried to balance doing acts of service for her (her LL) and letting her take care of herself. Some days she gives me big hugs for the smallest favors, others just a thank you for large ones. I think I'm subconsciously expecting more than she can give right now. I'm also missing her touch, it's so frustrating!

I know there are a few good things I should focus on. Last Thurs after leaving work an attractive woman walked by me. Being a guy, I turned to check her out after she passed and found that she had also turned to check *me* out. Man, what an ego boost! W and I are going to a dance show tonight. We still talk and get along well. Still, I feel like I'm on a downward part of the roller coaster waiting to climb the next hill.