Had to make a visit to the Blessed Sacrament after work. Yesterday was a screwed up seratonin day.
I remember a few weeks ago I got a sense that God was telling me that "only out of the smoke of destruction will W come out of the fog." (I had no idea what that meant)
Then yesterday I sensed God telling me that "the seeds of destruction have been planted." (again, no idea)
I'm kinda hoping destruction refers to WAW's R with OM and not my R with W, but the evidence is right in my lawyer's office. It is the M which is being destroyed.
Funny thing though - processing through the D is helping me with acceptance and detachment. I expect that when the finalizing day arrives my seratonin will get totally out of balance, but I'll deal with it.
Either way, the messages I am sensing from God, whether it's just my imagination or not, I think it will be better for me to get this over and done with.
She can't learn that D will not solve her problems without the experience, right? She can't come out of her fog the way she went in, she can only go trough it and come out the other side, right?
Someone once said, "If you're going through hell, keep going." So that's what I'm doing.
One more thing, and this might help some of you. I also sensed God telling me: "Do not fear the unknown." Makes sense - why fear what you do not know? He says: "The future is unknown; do not fear the future."
Me 53 XW 50 M 18 Years +2 S14 D19 Bomb 10-24-10 Served 1-27-11 Mediate 4-21-11 Civil D Final 6-2-11 No church anullment "A man is not finished when he is defeated, he is finished when he quits."
