Welcome to the board Rue but sorry you are here. Your story sounds so familiar! My H left the first time in 2001.
Reading about men in MLC really helped me to uncerstand what my H was going through and helped me to have some compassion for him. Detaching from the drama has been the hardest thing but one of the most necessary!
You are in good company here!
M48 H53 M16 T18 S16 D13 SS30 H drops bomb PA/8-30-09 H leaves 12-30-09 D filed by H 2-10 H asks to come home 4-11 Piecing