Have you read DR or DB? When your H had the A the first time, did the two of you go into C? Is he still living at home?
As hard as it is, try not to take the things he says seriously. They will be very hurtful, but don't give in. He is treating you bad because it makes him feel better. It's a bully complex. He blames you for all the problems in the M to justify his A. But think about it. Was he really a saint this whole time? He had an A before. He's got the issues not you.
Stand strong and detach your feelings for him.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
