Every time she started to come back towards me I could see the struggle she was having inside of herself. I kept telling her that I was sincere in wanting to be the best for her and that if I had to give her the divorce to show her then I would. I feel like I have done that... I just don't want her to think that I have moved on.
My last contact was through text on Saturday.
I had taken her degrees to her house but she was out running so I left them on the porch and texted her to let her know they were there.
She replied "thanks... I'll bring some stuff to you sometime" and I took that as positive because she really hasn't taken the initiative to come towards me.
I replied to that letting her know that would be great but that I would be out of town on Wednesday or Thursday for an interview out of town. Then she replied that the divorce would be final on Wednesday but I didn't have to be here for it...
I am confused why she was holding that information from me because she obviously knew before hand when the divorce would be final but hadn't told me about it until then. I don't know if me saying I was going to be out of town upset her and she wanted to get even or what. I really have no clue... All that I know is that she would not be ready to look at reconciliation until it was completely on her own terms. This means letting her go and I have done that. I am moving on with my life in a way that I hope doesn't conflict with our ability to work things out if that's the path that she takes.
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M 11/11/00 Bomb end of September 2010 Filed 11/9/10
