I think you need to talk to Gabe. Let him know that you want him to stay but only if this relationship means something to both of you. You need to let him know that you are afraid of him leaving and maybe that is irrational but what are his thoughts. You deserve to be in a relationship you feel good about because really you don't deserve to walk on eggshells in your own life.

hugs, kat

Me-53(and learning!)
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Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory