Hope I can do that. Fought more Sat., things ok Sunday. We spent most of the day apart yesterday and then went out for a nice dinner. I am working on not letting his mood/distance bother me (make me cry more) as I am the one that has pushed him away...
Still a couple times, which is a +++. Ok, more than a +
He just went to lunch with his mom & asked if I wanted him to just come back and get me to do more xmas stuff. I said to call first, but i don't think i'll go anywhere til he gets home. I've been doing all the shopping for his fam. He can join me for the rest of it...
Shopped with my mom yesterday and went out with her & her bro. sat. Had a really good time. She keeps asking, "so, you're happy, right?" or, "are you happy?" all, i can say, is "yeah, i'm ok." I cannot get into a serious convo. with her. I'll only end up feeling worse. She hasn't been griping too much about men and may actually be done with her bf who she's been complaining about for almost 3 years. We'll see. I know her thoughts/feelings/beliefs shouldn't affect me, but they are so ingrained in me. I hate it. I make the worst ASSumptions about H and never give him the benefit of the doubt.
I wouldn't be surprised if he wrapped up a D and gave it to me for xmas.
I wanted to find an appropriate xmas card, but can't find one that says, "gee, i've been such an @sshole. Thanks for spending the holidays with me anyway." so i got a cute one and may just write that on the side.
a couple times, which is a +++. Ok, more than a + 
