When life hands you lemons add alcohol and stir!

[mishka422]

His exact words back in September were, "Why does this have to be leading anywhere or be anything. We're having fun enjoying each other's company. That's enough.

That was that. Closed for discussion. This is all it can be or will be and I'm either ok with that or I have to ask him to leave. I can't decide which.

He hasn't left. It is impossible for me to open my mouth and speak about the pseudo-R with him. I try and I choke on my own words. So, I guess my fear has a total hold on me that I can't manage to break. I'm not brave enough to speak up and get squashed again. After what happened in September, I'm just too scared.