But that has to come from inside. What if he did leave? You would survive. What if he died? You would grieve, you would survive, you would live still. Karen will survive. She does not need her H to survive, or live her life. He is an added joy to her already, soon to be, overflowing joyful life!
You are young, strong and healthy and have so many choices and options in front of you.
Have fun, enjoy this holiday, make it a good memory to add to your memories.
I know it is easier to sit here and say all of that, but it is what I am telling myself also ok?
It really has to be a choice, deep down inside of you and I don't think anything anyone else tells you is going to get you there till deep inside Karen you decide you will be alright.
I know I had some awesome people from this bb post some great advice to me. And I think it is NOW helping me. I read it but until I got to that place inside myself, I couldn't/didn't really consistently apply it. It helped for awhile, but then I would be back sort of where I was before I read the posts.
It has to be for yourself and your choice. At least that is my experience. And IT AIN'T EASY. But is it worth it, YES , a hundred times over it is worth the struggle to get it and to keep it!
I think it is called the JOY OF LIVING!
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
But is it worth it, YES , a hundred times over it is worth the struggle to get it and to keep it! 
