OK PAM, I must be on the wrong meds!!!

Sage, it's not your fault. Were you being facetious about my post saying so much??

Yes, the holidays really bother me.

What works? I forget...
...Feeling secure. But how did I do that??? I was all inspired when I found Michele's books, and motivated, and db'ing, etc. What happened to the air in my balloon? And h was making more threats of leaving. (wrong motivation?). I mean, he told me a few weeks ago that he's not ready to say that he is sure he wants to be m to me, but he hasn't talked about leaving.

I just want some security, comfort...