I read through your thread today at a the right time because I have started feeling hopeless about my situation and am having panic attacks. SC, a lot of your questions are mine too. I appreciate Laura's advice to you and will try to absorb them.
Me:49 H:45 D:12 M:14 T:18 Bomb: 6/26/10 EA: 9/3/10, fizzled out slowly, now ??? 11/5/11 Retrouvaille Finally piecing.... Its peaceful at last, but we got a looong way to go