You know what else, on dealing with your fear, you can't be a more fearful person than I am. My whole life has been lived in some sort of fear or other. But, you know what, you have told me that you are better not in an R than in one. So there is your answer, IF it did ever happen, he left, found someone else, or whatever YOU WOULD SURVIVE and even eventually thrive.
But, you don't want to live your life today worrying about fears that may never happen and if they do you are strong enough in yourself to deal with them. I can say this in complete confidence as I am sure you are a stronger person than I ever thought of being!!!
So, go have fun, relax and enjoy your life and your wonderful H!
As I told totite earlier, I love my fond memories and I am not going to let them make my present sad, because I don't want to add sad memories, just be grateful for them and be grateful for different things now. Don't let worries about your future take the joy out of your present.
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
