I have got my marching orders from my previous thread, so here is my new one.
My subject refers to my journey to Germany to help my D30 with the birth of her third child, a boy after two girls. I was happy to help because I was not able to do so very often when she had the girls (I had younger kids of my own and it was difficult to get away). I don't how much 'help' I was, but I'm sure it made things easier to have someone at the house when she went into labour late at night. And, this dude came fast ... not much time to be getting anyone to the babysitters.
I have been in Germany for almost a month and haven't managed to see anything. Not a good time to go to Europe, everyone says, but I had no choice in this. I am hoping to go to Cologne this weekend with a friend, if all works out according to plan.
I came across this quote: "Every exit is an entry somewhere." ~ Tom Stoppard
It seems so appropriate to my situation, as it does for everyone, in whatever position in life you may occupy. I won't actively exit now, but I will keep in mind that if I do there are always entrances out there to something different and perhaps more exciting.
Who knows what might be around the next corner? I am going to just enjoy THIS MOMENT, and believe that miracles do happen.
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim
Thanks Mila and WCW. The only negative is that my D30 so much wants H to come and see the baby, and attend the christening next month, but he's using his work as an excuse. I think he is trying to avoid me. I had to tell him in the end, that D30 especially said to her H that she wants dad to come. Anyway, it seems as if he's going to be able to squeeze in a weekend to come and see the baby, on his way to China. How kind of him (dripping with sarcasm). Maybe I should go away that weekend. My D30 is his step-daughter, but he brought her up since she was 4, so I hope that the fact the grandson isn't his blood is not playing a factor in this. She would be so hurt, if that were the case. I may just ask him. If it is, then I would never tell her.
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim
Argh! I was going to have my ex-boyfriend (now a friend) come visit me at my D30 this weekend ... he booked the ticket. And, now my H decides he will come and see the baby this weekend after all. He was going to come the following weekend, if at all. So, ex from 30 years ago, and H will be meeting each other. Will be interesting. Unless ex bows out. I have no romantic interest in him ... he's just a nice guy, and makes me laugh. He has a girlfriend. I won't have another opportunity to see him for another year (if I can make it back to Germany then, that is). Of course, my H knew I had intended seeing him and a couple of other friends if possible.
Really interesting situation.
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim
Being - maybe that's a good thing...old BF around...you may show a bit more interest in him then you feel in front of H...maybe it will make H think that Being may have other options (wink) then to suffer through H's MLC...just a thought
M53 H54 D17 M33Y T38Y Bomb OW 09/09 OUT 10/09 BACK 11/09 OUT 01/10 WANTS TO R 04/10 BACK with OW 05/10 Wants to Reconcile 05/11 I said NO
Hahaha! ExBF said as much, but I've already told H that he has a GF, and that I am not interested romantically. Although, H may not believe that since he lies to me a lot, and liars tend not to believe those who tell the truth. We'll see what happens.
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim
Okay, so I find myself in the worst possible situation. My ex-bf came to visit me in Germany and so did my H (although, he was really coming to meet the baby). All went well, H and ex-BF got on famously as did he with my SIL32 and my D30. We went for dinners, out to historical places, etc. I actually to meet-up with ex-BF at the train station earlier, so we had a chance to meet for the first time in 33 years. It was amazing --- we hugged, and didn't stop talking from then on. All was fine, had a great weekend with everyone. H was tired and got to bed early, and we sat around chatting for awhile then ex-BF went back to his b&b. All is fine and good on the western frontier. Ex went back early on Sunday, and H later that day. H likes ex, says he's a good guy and Ex says the same of H.
The next weekend, I rent a car and go visit ex-BF in city where he works. I stay with him, and all was going according to plan on the Friday night. We are able to talk and talk and talk into the night. We fell asleep on the same bed because we talked ourselves to sleep, and nothing happened. Phew!
I really was not interested romantically .... I really, really treasure this man's friendship beyond any kind of romance, or A, or whatever. He was my best friend 33 years ago before we ever slept together. And that was what I was aiming for and he tells me that he was too. He has a GF who lives in her country and he gets there once every few weeks, but its complicated in that she has a 8yr old daughter who has regarded my ex-BF as her dad almost all her life, even though he has no intention of marrying the GF or anyone else, for that matter. I know this, and I would never ask him or anyone else to give up such a huge responsibility. I don't know what his R with GF is like. He doesn't say, and I don't ask. I might've got to that before this weekend, but I couldn't now.
I have to get my thoughts into gear ... will post some more later.
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim
