Well I spoke with my counselor today and she basically told me to stop the self loathing, it is understandable but to find ways to get past the rough times.... I told her that coming on here was a nice outlet but that i have been walking more with my daughter and playing games with my son. Also working out a little more than normal.

She told me the storm is gong to get alot worse.. She compared it to a hurricane and that even when it seems calm, that is just the eye passing through. That was a great analogy for me to understand.

Anyway, she told me alot of what Sandi2 has said and that I need to just plug along, I can only control me. I agree but darnit.


Me - 39 yrs old
Wife - 39 yrs old
Married - 18 years
Together - almost 21 year
Kids - son age 13/ daughter age 10
Bomb Dropped in May 2010
Seperating - June 2011, after school lets out