Well I had a few beers last night and a bunch of laughter. I needed that! I had 3 missed calls and 1 text message saying "did u want 2 discuss the taxes? I didn't respond and I haven't let her know anything. I don't like ignoring her but if it's not about the kids I need to stay dark. I slept good last night so thats a positive sign.
I am not doing as good as I would like today. I have a little anxiety telling me to let her know what went on with the taxes. But I know I am not her priority so why should she be my priority? I will refrain from letting her know anything.
I have been thinking about my wife and the OM today. With this guy single and never really having a woman in his life. She has replaced me with someone else and I really don't like that thought. It has been eating at me all morning. I have been replaced by another man and I was told by some of my friends that know him better than I do, he is a really good guy. That is probably the thing that hurts me the most. I don't see this thing ending. Do I still hold out a slight bit of hope that someday it might end or just let go of her for good? Maybe this is just a slip in my detatchment and maybe I should focus on myself. Maybe it's just my first bad day in a while.
I need to focus and I need to be the better man.
Me 44 W 38 M 18 D 18 D 13 Bomb 10/21/2010 Divorced 7/19/2011 Just getting to the 7th inning!
