H called last night from his buinsess trip to say goodnight to he kids. I let it go to voicemail at first because we wer busy with dinner. His message said "just calling to say goodnight to the kids, hope you guys had a good day. Give me a call back." He called back when I was upstairs but did not leave a message. I waited about 30 minutes and called him back to to let him talk to the kids. He was very friendly and after he spoke to the kids I filled him in on their day and was sure to end the conversation first without asking about his day or trying to start a conversation. This is a first for me....I was proud of myself. I know it seems small but I usually try so hard to engage him and show interest in his trips and what he did that day. I still can't stop thinking about my situation and obsessing on what he is going to do...leave us for ow or try to make things work. This is so difficult and breaking me down. I keep going over our last convos. I wish I knew what his plans were....I have to stop trying to mind read.
